Today I made the decision to have a gastric balloon fitted. I am excited and I am dreading it at the same time.
Some years ago, I had my first gastric balloon fitted at my local hospital and the memories of being awake and only lightly sedated during the procedure are not pleasant. I was also so disappointed in the aftercare, and really struggled to get the medication right to control the side effects. It took weeks for me to feel comfortable. Needless to say, the 2 stone that I lost over the course of those 6 months went straight back on afterwards.
Now I am at the same point again weight-wise and I berate myself for having got this big again. I have very few clothes that still fit me and I am uncomfortable. I didn’t mind being a curvy size 14, but in reality I am now trying to squeeze a size 18 body into my size 14 clothes.
I can make a million excuses for my weight, and people are so understanding of those excuses.
Because I am nearly 6’ tall, they say “you carry your weigh so well, you don’t need to diet’.
My excuses – Because I balance work and being a mother to four young children, of course I was too busy to diet, because I had survived thyroid cancer four years ago, of course now my metabolism was even slower, because I have advanced osteoarthritis in my knees, of course I couldn’t exercise much.
Well, dear diary, I have had enough. I want to turn my excuses into reasons for losing weight!
I want to reduce the load my knees have to bear, I want to eat more healthily so that I can manage my energy levels better and I want to show my children what healthy eating looks like.
I also think that because of all my obstacles, it may take me longer to get to a healthy weight and so I need to have a long-term plan.
I was so excited to find that a 12-month balloon existed and I emailed the two nearest places
that offered this procedure. I was already impressed with the aftercare on offer at NOSC, it seemed just so much better than my previous experience. I had an immediate response to me email, and also spoke to Rob at the support centre who answered all my questions, and I just knew I was going to be in much better hands, so I booked myself in!
I cannot wait to get started but I am a little anxious about the procedure and the first few days with the balloon.
I’ll write more when I can!
Here is a a photo of me now, weighing in at 15 stone 2 1/2 pounds.